If I Had Been

A phrase always tinged with regret 
and bereavement of thoughts.
If I had been is a sorrowfull and agonizing statement. 
From a broken individual full of pity and endless sadness.
A mournful and anguishing situation 
from which you don't know where to begin.
Not knowing that you are actually headed into now-empty, 
silent open space called truth.
Because inside every truth lies 
a misery no one wants to know.
But the truth will piss you off first 
then it will eventually set you free.
A deep condolonces to your wishes 
because it will only abide, dwell and hang around 
as a dream and it will remain as a rem sleep.
A reverie of an unreachable and unattainable past.
Mourn from it now for tomorrow brings another day.
A day for you to recover.
A day for you to rest.
A day for you to redeem yourself.
A day for you to be better.
A day for you to uncover.
You have been in self-pity for so long.
Drifting and cruising like a cloud to an endless horrizon of sorrow and regret.
You have been adrift and astronomically out of your league.
The good thing is chances are limitless and tomorrow is endless.
Change your tomorrow.
And your future will be at rest.

By: Jay Carreon